Life is so unbearably hard. Nothing I ever do is good enough, or right, no matter how hard I try. I feel hopeless, so lost and alone.
I have to stay in this relationship because I have have nowhere else to go. He’s always reminding me of how useless I am and that I can’t do it with out him. I’m not capable of getting out of this. We can’t even make it work with his pay. How will I ever be able to do it alone? He threatens to take my kids away from me if I think about trying to leave. There is no one to ask for help. We’ve been so isolated for so long. Where can I turn? My kids deserve so much more. I’m not strong enough to make it on my own.
What I make isn’t enough to support my kids. I have nothing left to sell. The bills are piling up and I am constantly avoiding answering the phone. Most importantly, how do I make life better for my kids? I don’t know what to do or where to turn.
I don’t know what’s happening? What do I do? I’m so scared. Daddy’s yelling. Mommy is crying.
Maybe if I hide the yelling will stop.
I hate to go home after school. There is always fighting and yelling. It doesn’t matter what I say or do, I’m in trouble. I try to be a good boy but I still get in trouble. Nobody cares. No one wants me around. I’m useless.
Kids are always making fun of me because I don’t have a nice home and nice things. Sometimes I don’t have enough to eat. I feel so alone. Mommy is always upset and too busy to talk to me. She doesn’t hear me when I want to talk to her. No one understands. No one cares. I can’t do anything right.
This must be my fault. If I didn’t make so many mistakes or if I was better in school, then Daddy wouldn’t have to yell all the time and mommy would be happy and want me around. I need to be perfect. What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I get it right? I don’t know what to do.
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